Saint Joseph School

January 27, 2009

Another day ends but it's a start of a new journal! I'm going to break this in like any other journal I've had.

I've spent the last few months at Saint Joseph school. I miss home horribly. I've made a few friends since coming here like, Alex, Aura, Roy and hopefully I'm making friends with Chase and Damian maybe even Brody. They are new to the school. I was hoping to make more friends, but I feel some of the student's don't like the fact I'm a peace bringer.. I remember freaking a few out when I first got here. I blame the Void attack I encountered when I first got here.. that caused all sorts of problems.. for me and Lucuis. Things are better now.

I'm still not use to the new memories... Well I guess they are kinda old too.. before I was even born. Its so weird. Because I know I didn't do those things.. but I did. I feel horrible for Lucuis, he's been around for so long but still there is a lot of sadness there.

Anyways. Its getting kinda hard to make this recap.. so much has happened, It's over whelming.. I guess if your reading this, it be best to read the other journal.

Today was AWESOME. I'm really excited. So I came out to do some patrolling after I was done my classes and Roy was around. Brody piped up to on the comm too and Roy was talking about fighting reindeer. So we ended up going to an area called Croatoa. Brody seemed to know a lot about the creatures there. I was impressed. After showing us the creatures we headed to this little pond in the woods. It was so pretty, these, sprites where all over. They look like little blue and white lights. It reminded me of when I first met Lucuis. Some of them started to float by me. They were warm, it was awesome. Then, Roy asked me to the snowball! I must admit I was surprised but excited at the same time! My first date ever, It'll be fun I hope! Brody had to head back to class, and me and Roy went and explored some more. We found 2 huge monsters and a big rock chair before we headed back to the pond. As it turns out they really really liked me. I had 4 of those sprites playing with me. I thought it was because I was a peace bringer was why they liked me so much, so I figured I had to tell Aura about it.

So when I heard her voice on the comm. I told her about it, and we met up Roy led the way back to the pond. The sprites seemed a little more shy this time. Maybe they were tired, or maybe it was because there was more people. I don't know. It looked like Aura was really having fun with them. We touched on the idea of one following her all the way back to the dorm. I was really surprised on how many people piped up on the idea that it was evil! I mean I get that its not that safe here, but if all you look for is the evil in things then that's all you'll ever see. Imagine living like that? I think that would be horrible. A few other students came by, like Nick and Damian. I feel so sorry for Nick, he can't talk or hear. I mean that has to be rough. In order to communicate you have to right in front of him other wise he misses it. He is blessed with the fact he can create illusions in the air to help him display what he means. We hung out and explored Aura had to leave shortly after that. We showed Nick and Damian the huge chair. It was a lot of fun.

Anyways its time for me to get some sleep! I probably have a busy day again tomorrow, a long with that project I have due Friday. Need to make sure it gets done! Time to read my scriptures and get some sleep!

January 29, 2009

Tee hee! I had so much fun! I learned a new trick and its sooo much fun! I really really wish I was home right now to show my parents. Okay, okay so a few nights ago I tried to float a bottle cap off of a bottle of water. I did okay... but I kept practicing and now I can get other people to fly to! It's great fun! It creeps Roy right out and I love the fact it gives them the same glowing eyes I get when I use the Kheldian energy. I love it! its like they are all peace bringers but not! I did that a lot once I figured it out. Hope Roy didn't get too pissed off at me though. I think I'll pull a prank on Alex and sneak up behind her when I catch her studing. Maybe a few others too. I wonder if Aura can do that? Well I'll have to let her know. Since I remember when she got stuck.. now I can actually help her down! That would be rather neat!

Actually thinking about today was a pretty funny day. While I was out on patrol Eddie was out helping Roy and, this was actually kinda weird, but we had really really similar suits... The wings in the hair, same design on the top, the same style cape the biggest difference was his was blue and black and mine is pink and white. It was really really embarrassing... Roy couldn't get over it either. He just kept snickering until Eddie had to go.

Then this hero came to help us out. Dana was his name. Creepily enough his outfit was kinda like mine too... but more yellow supa glowly... So it might not have been like mine now that I think about. Anyways. He was kinda weird. He did things to those red caps minds... and was kinda bossy to.. But I guess he had a lot of experience so I just listened, Damian came later to help us too. We made it out! Those fairy rings are really really creepy. I don't want to touch a mushroom anymore for fear I might go to some weird version of the same place I was just at! I really don't blame the small membership at all. I don't think my parents or my friends could live here. I'm amazed that the everyday citizen can live here and stay sane.

These days are getting really long... Seminary, school, patrolling just take up to much of my day. I can't wait til Saturday so I can sleep in. It'll be soooo nice, but you know what they say. Spiritually minded is life eternal! SMILE! Nephi is so awesome, some times I really wonder what it would be like to have a father that was a prophet of God. Its weird... I know so much history now.. and inside I feel this doubt.. and it bugs me.. I think I'll need to reflect on some things, and pray. I think I hear the nun's coming for bed check so I better read a chapter, do my prayer and get some sleep. Seminary comes far far to early.

January 30, 2009

Well tonight at the D was pretty good. Unmasked as it usually is mostly fun, but sometimes the music.. is really interesting. Its always a hit and miss with the music, the company is always good so its worth going each Friday night. There was three events that totally made the night for me. We had a robo groupie going! Roy, Damian and myself did the robot dance for a good part of the night. We goofed off with the idea and ran with it. Saying we were secretly robots. Not Crey ones and they said something about Nemesis, and it took me a bit to get it.. but I haven't dealt with the Nemesis since the new bonding. Anyways we also came up with Hero sayings to go with our powers. Like the Hammer of Truth, Stomp of Justice and Shock of Righteousness. I might have mixed those up... but it shows the idea of what we were doing. The other one was new nick names we all came up for each other. I wasn't to fond of the one Roy and Damian picked out for me. Sailor moon.. so the started calling me meatball head and all that good jazz. I don't even have buns on my head. I don't think it fits. The best one we came up with was Pikachu for Damian. It was so awesome! Best part is that it fits since he can use electricity. Some how Megaman got picked for Roy, but we all really wanted to call him The Rock! He didn't care much for it, but the sayings we came up for it was so awesome. Like he should be a chef, so you could "Can you smell what the rock was cooking." But then he said he'd make a horrible chef, so then it was more like "Can you smell what the rock is Burning!" My sides are just a tad sore still from all the laughing we did. Casey and Anna showed up and we opted to go do some late night patrolling.

So off to Croatoa we went to get some iron from those Red caps. In the process we stumbled upon Voids, which I usually see.. but what got me was the Nictus that where there. I just felt this wave of hate come over me as I saw the Mefnanim floating there, taunting me. It just makes me mad thinking about it. Then there was a Ruktur that showed up after that. I just didn't feel myself while they were around. I just wanted the Nictus to die, like they had done a horrible, horrible thing to me, no they DID do a horrible thing to me. Is that this sadness I carry with me? Bah I feel conflicted about it all. I want to let it go but I can't, I don't. This is making my head hurt.

I guess Casey hadn't run into a peacebringer or the Nictus before.. So after the patrolling, we all headed to the sprite pool and played with the sprites. I got the chance to kinda explain the deal to him, in a nut shell.

He thought it was awesome that I could take people flying with me. I love that ability, I think Roy doesn't like it though. I won't do that to him anymore. Casey said if we ever wanted to hang I could just let him know I'm flying people he'd be right there. Apparently he got cut on patrol so he needed to stop by the hospital, so I flew him there and tired to help him out best I could. I really hope he does make it to the Ball tomorrow night, I told him I'd save him a dance. I mostly likely will have to teach him, but I'm okay with that. Its always good to learn something new, and to be able to teach it is just as good. I mean we are all here to learn, grow and experience things.

I hope Damian is okay too. He shouted EMP, and I guess knocked himself out? I missed it but it really freaked Roy out. Or Roy looked freaked out about it. He told Roy that it was controlled. But really.. it wasn't. He let me know later out of Roy's ear shot. I won't tell Roy, I'm sure Damian had a good reason for it.

I learned a lot about Damian today too. Like why he is at the school and how he go here. I feel sorry for him. Mainly because he did the right thing in protecting his Girlfriend at the time and she left him! I don't understand that! if some guy came up and grabbed my butt and some one did something about it, I'd be grateful. No matter how he got the message across. I'm glad I'm friends with him now. I'm grateful for what a good bunch they all are.

It's that time to do my daily read and get some sleep, I totally get to sleep in and its going to be amazing!

April 4 2009,

I hate it! I hate it! I hate it!! Why the heck does there have to be a Warshade in the school! I just made the biggest idiot of myself. The Biggest! The emotions, and this conflicting emotions I feel around Lightless are to much. I called him a Nictus, in front of everyone! I went to the washroom and when I got back I felt that sick feeling I get when they are around and I shouted it. Nictus! The look I got from Joey.. it could kill. They feel the same darn it! I just feel that dark energy inside him and it trigger the hate, the venom, the sadness that floods me each time. I hear the those screams of pain of a family that's not mine but was.. It's maddening. I know these feelings have been in existence for a long time. Carried from century to century. The vow of vengeance that was made that night, no forgiveness can be exercised but I feel that I should. It was a mistake, especially after our little "agreement" we made the first night we met. I don't feel sorry for shouting what I did, but I do..

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