Aftermaths
Posted: Thu Jun 05, 2008 11:49 am
It was Tuesday now, some time before morning classes . He lay there in a wing out to each side staring up at the ceiling, it wasn’t the most comfortable way to lay, but there was something about looking up that made him feel slightly at ease. Something about pointing towards the sky. His face would occasionally contort as he would think and try to rationalize what was going on.
Matt was just another human who fell for a stupid pair of wings and bright smile, he had told him before, its not worth it. He had told him before, everyone who does, they get hurt. Sure enough tonight, they stood their face to face, fighting over it. He had been here before, it was the start of the long unpleasant path to losing a friend. Part of him wished he could just show Matt the memories, of others standing not unlike, with mannerisms and tones, eerily similar to his own. Each time there was a different face, but the results seemed to always be the same.
Fear, concern? Probably a combination of the two. He turned to his side staring into the wall, curling up his arms and legs lowering his head slightly, it was times like these he missed home the most. Here, the friends they seemed, something about them seemed better, but home was more stable. It lacked this near constant struggle. He remembered talking to Sam about it, how some people want or think they need it to be a part of their life, something they share with others. It doesn’t matter what or who they have, you could have a hundred close friends, it still would be there, misery. Not because there is something wrong, but that they have grown accustom to the sensation, something about it appealed to them.
After watching the hellish life of drug addicts in health and what people would put themselves through for sensations, the whole notion seemed much more reasonable. Nova smiled through the dark thoughts, as he remembered talking to her by the pool so many months ago. He had spoken to others that if he could, he would take them to visit, in his mind though, it was Sam who could show up, and never skip a beat. It was probably that goofy smile she would get. Adam and Primere would roll their eyes and say “Well she isn’t a friend of Nova’s” Sam would show them how to skate, we would show her power ball, and it would just be fun.
His mind drifted entertaining the idea until it took him to sleep, unfortunately, it wasn’t more than an hour before the alarm went off. “Ugh” he called slamming it. Today might be a good day for detention, he thought to himself, and of course he was supposed to talk to someone about that picture at the prom too. Luckily in this state, he would at best give a dopey tired nod rather than a fight about the whole thing. With that he slid out of bed, onto his knees, laying his head on the mattress for just five more minutes.
Matt was just another human who fell for a stupid pair of wings and bright smile, he had told him before, its not worth it. He had told him before, everyone who does, they get hurt. Sure enough tonight, they stood their face to face, fighting over it. He had been here before, it was the start of the long unpleasant path to losing a friend. Part of him wished he could just show Matt the memories, of others standing not unlike, with mannerisms and tones, eerily similar to his own. Each time there was a different face, but the results seemed to always be the same.
Fear, concern? Probably a combination of the two. He turned to his side staring into the wall, curling up his arms and legs lowering his head slightly, it was times like these he missed home the most. Here, the friends they seemed, something about them seemed better, but home was more stable. It lacked this near constant struggle. He remembered talking to Sam about it, how some people want or think they need it to be a part of their life, something they share with others. It doesn’t matter what or who they have, you could have a hundred close friends, it still would be there, misery. Not because there is something wrong, but that they have grown accustom to the sensation, something about it appealed to them.
After watching the hellish life of drug addicts in health and what people would put themselves through for sensations, the whole notion seemed much more reasonable. Nova smiled through the dark thoughts, as he remembered talking to her by the pool so many months ago. He had spoken to others that if he could, he would take them to visit, in his mind though, it was Sam who could show up, and never skip a beat. It was probably that goofy smile she would get. Adam and Primere would roll their eyes and say “Well she isn’t a friend of Nova’s” Sam would show them how to skate, we would show her power ball, and it would just be fun.
His mind drifted entertaining the idea until it took him to sleep, unfortunately, it wasn’t more than an hour before the alarm went off. “Ugh” he called slamming it. Today might be a good day for detention, he thought to himself, and of course he was supposed to talk to someone about that picture at the prom too. Luckily in this state, he would at best give a dopey tired nod rather than a fight about the whole thing. With that he slid out of bed, onto his knees, laying his head on the mattress for just five more minutes.