All That Glitters
Posted: Fri Dec 14, 2007 10:13 pm
((DISCLAIMER: This story deals with the an incident of date rape and the emotional abuse that followed it. It centers around the feelings of the victim upon confronting her attacker again and what happens when a person gets backed into a corner one too many times. Please direct all questions and comments to this thread.
This story is rated for language, violence, and mentions of abuse.))
The cold winter chill flew through Bri's hair as Stephen steered his car into the parking lot of the football field. The game wouldn't start for another couple of hours but there were already a few people waiting in the stands. Students come to show their school spirit. Parents supporting their kids. A smile crept across Bri's face. It was almost like they were a normal school. She reached forward and flipped down the visor, applying liberal amounts of glittery powder over her face. She craned her head to the side and swept the brush down her neck and then across her collarbone. As she turned to work the brush back up the other side of her neck, she noticed Stephen watching her. She grinned at him. "Hey, handsome," she said, snapping her fingers in front of his face. "See something you like or are you just gonna drool on your leather seats?"
Bri laughed a little as she stepped out of the car. She could smell the grass on the field and inhaled the scent deeply. She had slways loved game day at Seacliff. It was her moment to shine. To lead her squad, to cheer on her guy. The excitement and exhiliration of it all seemed to stay with her, even at Saint Joseph. Sure, she wasn't the head cheerleader anymore. But she was still there, right on the front line. She looked over as Stephen rounded the car and offered her his arm. She took it gladly and they started for the stadium. And I still have my guy, Bri thought, squeezing Stephen's arm.
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"Come on! Go Flyers!" The final quarter was drawing quickly to an end, and Saint Joe's was down by four points. Bri stood at the sidelines, with the rest of the squad, pom poms pressed together, yelling her support of the team. They still had over twenty yards to cover and under half a minute to cover it in. Stephen took the snap and fell back a few steps. But instead of setting up the kick for Sam, he looked to Frank to pass. But Frank was too well covered and Stephen could clearly see a gap in the defense. "Go, Stephen!" Tucking the ball into his arm, he sprinted down the field, losing his two assailants. The crowd stood as he neared the goal line. Bri drew in a deep breath and jumped as two tacklers took him down, wincing with the hit.
The crowd, which up til this moment had been holding it's collective breath, erupted in a cheer as Stephen stood both feet firmly planted in the endzone as the referee called the touchdown. Bri grinned from ear to ear as the clock ran down the last few seconds and the buzzer sounded. Behind her she could hear the squad go into a cheer, but Bri was focused on the guy being surrounded by his teammates, all trying to voice their congratulations and praise at the same time. He looked her way as he removed his helmet and winked at her. She smiled and blew him a kiss, nearly laughing with pride. It was just like it was before. At Seacliff. Just like the glory days.
Bri was still smiling over half an hour later as she exited the girl's locker room, running a brush through her hair a few more times before unzipping her duffel and shoving the brush in next to her make-up bag and uniform. She scanned the area, trying to locate the quarterback, to see if he was waiting on her yet.
"Bri? Oh my God, you looked great out there!" Bri turned to the voice behind her as a smile spread quickly across her face. She'd know that wavy brown hair and high voice anywhere. She stepped to the other girl and embraced her tightly.
"Ash, what are you doing here? I thought you were going to Korvus now!" Ashley Kingsley giggled lightly and brushed some of her hair out of her face as she stood back from Bri. Still wearing too much make-up, Ash, Bri thought, but continued to smile at her old friend. And good God, that outfit. What were you thinking? I taught you better than that.
Ashley just smiled and tossed her chestnut hair a bit. "Stephen said that he and Diyar and you are having a bit of trouble at Saint Joe's so he invited us as a surprise for you!"
Bri's smile never faltered as she tilted her head to the side. "U-us?"
Ash just giggled again and did a little bounce, before nodding, sending her waves of hair back over her shoulders. "Yep! Me and JD! He's around here somewh- Oh! There he is! JD! I found her! Over here!" Ash jumped and craned her neck, waving an arm. Bri turned her head to see a seven-foot-tall, muscled teen approaching quickly, his star jock smile plastered on his face. His dirty blonde hair just barely touched the tops of his ears and his blue-grey eyes sparkled slightly when he smiled. He, like Ashley, still wore his Seacliff letterman's jacket. Once upon a time, Bri had thought him handsome, charming, and that smile would have melted her knees. But now... Now, it made every muscle in her tense up. Without her willing it to, Bri's hand started to shake slightly. To hide it she grabbed the strap of her duffel and shouldered it. It wouldn't do for John David Langston to know she was still terrified of him.
And she was. After six months of separation and thousands of dollars in therapy, every time she saw him, she was thrust back to that night two years ago, when she groggily woke up to the pain and fear. When she came to on that couch, JD's hand pinning both her wrists above her head, his other hand unbuttoning her shirt and working its way up her leg, under her skirt...
Bri blinked and swallowed audibly. "Hey, JD. How's Korvus treating you two?" Bri screamed at herself to run, to get away. But if she ran, he'd know. He'd know that he still had power over her, could still manipulate her. The fear she had fought so hard to forget snaked up her spine, making her shiver more than the December wind that whipped across the field. She willed herself to stop shaking as JD embraced her briefly and smiled at her as he draped an arm over Ash's shoulders.
"It's going good. I mean, we really miss you and Stephen and Jenn and Trevor. Not quite the same without the whole gang, you know?"
Bri nodded slightly, suddenly conscious of the fact the he could probably see right through her facade. His eyes caught hers and the sparkle was gone. In it's place was a cold, calculating stare. Bri looked away and smiled at Ash. "So did you make cheer squad at Korvus?" When the girl simply nodded, Bri continued. "Oh, that's great, Ash. Like there was really ever any doubt."
The group spoke for another few minutes, the tension mounting in Bri until she knew she couldn't hide it much longer. She looked over her shoulder, searching for an excuse to leave, to escape. She noted a few of her classmates out in the parking lot, probably discussing where to celebrate the victory. But they were too far away and she didn't know them well enough for them to call her over. She could claim to have left something in the locker room. Yes, that's it. Then she could call Stephen's cell and have him meet the three of them. She'd have her protector with her. She wouldn't have to be scared then. JD wouldn't try anything with Stephen there.
"Oh, shoot." Bri looked up as Ash spoke, pulling her cell from her too tight jeans. "I gotta take this. It's Daddy. I'll be right back." Bri wanted to beg Ash not to leave her alone, to stay nearby, but before she could speak Ash had rounded the corner and disappeared.
"Well, I, uh... I left something in the l-locker room. So I'll..." Bri took a step towards the door. She jumped as JD slammed his palm into the wall, his arm blocking her path. She paled slightly. "JD, I'll just be a minute."
JD's charming smile was gone now. His face was cold and frightening. "Hang on just a sec. Been a while, Babe." He brought his hand up and ran it along the side of her face and into her hair, grimacing as she flinched away. "You still remember don't you? The deal we made?" Bri nodded quickly, her eyes growing wide as JD grabbed her shoulder and pinned it against the wall. "Good. Tell me again."
Bri's voice was barely a whisper as she slowly spoke. "I don't t-tell anyone what happened." She took a deep breath as JD grabbed her right shoulder, his large hands enveloping her entire upper arms. "A... And you don't..." Bri trailed off. She could already feel the tears starting to well up in her eyes. She hated him. She hated what he had made her. She hated the "deal" they had made. She hated keeping quiet and playing the perfect best friend.
JD painfully squeezed her shoulders and pushed them back as far as he could into the wall. He leaned in next to her ear and whispered, "And I don't snap your pretty little neck, Princess."
The tears came freely now. She could feel JD smile next to her, pleased with the effect he still had on her. She shook in his grasp, making no struggle to escape. The terror of that night and the year that followed at Seacliff, the days of pretending that everything was okay, watching her friend date her attacker, all of it welled up in her.
And beneath it all, she could feel it. The groggy, fuzzy feeling she got on patrol. Normally, she'd be horrified for it to happen on campus. But for now, she embraced it. It was an escape, a refuge where she didn't have to be afraid. As JD grinned a twisted version of his charming smile and moved a hand to her neck, she let herself slip. She let the feeling wash over her and cover her completely. She could already feel her fist tightening, tensing under the strain, waiting to be unleashed. As her vision narrowed and blinked out she heard JD laugh. "And we wouldn't want that, would we, Babe?"
This story is rated for language, violence, and mentions of abuse.))
The cold winter chill flew through Bri's hair as Stephen steered his car into the parking lot of the football field. The game wouldn't start for another couple of hours but there were already a few people waiting in the stands. Students come to show their school spirit. Parents supporting their kids. A smile crept across Bri's face. It was almost like they were a normal school. She reached forward and flipped down the visor, applying liberal amounts of glittery powder over her face. She craned her head to the side and swept the brush down her neck and then across her collarbone. As she turned to work the brush back up the other side of her neck, she noticed Stephen watching her. She grinned at him. "Hey, handsome," she said, snapping her fingers in front of his face. "See something you like or are you just gonna drool on your leather seats?"
Bri laughed a little as she stepped out of the car. She could smell the grass on the field and inhaled the scent deeply. She had slways loved game day at Seacliff. It was her moment to shine. To lead her squad, to cheer on her guy. The excitement and exhiliration of it all seemed to stay with her, even at Saint Joseph. Sure, she wasn't the head cheerleader anymore. But she was still there, right on the front line. She looked over as Stephen rounded the car and offered her his arm. She took it gladly and they started for the stadium. And I still have my guy, Bri thought, squeezing Stephen's arm.
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"Come on! Go Flyers!" The final quarter was drawing quickly to an end, and Saint Joe's was down by four points. Bri stood at the sidelines, with the rest of the squad, pom poms pressed together, yelling her support of the team. They still had over twenty yards to cover and under half a minute to cover it in. Stephen took the snap and fell back a few steps. But instead of setting up the kick for Sam, he looked to Frank to pass. But Frank was too well covered and Stephen could clearly see a gap in the defense. "Go, Stephen!" Tucking the ball into his arm, he sprinted down the field, losing his two assailants. The crowd stood as he neared the goal line. Bri drew in a deep breath and jumped as two tacklers took him down, wincing with the hit.
The crowd, which up til this moment had been holding it's collective breath, erupted in a cheer as Stephen stood both feet firmly planted in the endzone as the referee called the touchdown. Bri grinned from ear to ear as the clock ran down the last few seconds and the buzzer sounded. Behind her she could hear the squad go into a cheer, but Bri was focused on the guy being surrounded by his teammates, all trying to voice their congratulations and praise at the same time. He looked her way as he removed his helmet and winked at her. She smiled and blew him a kiss, nearly laughing with pride. It was just like it was before. At Seacliff. Just like the glory days.
Bri was still smiling over half an hour later as she exited the girl's locker room, running a brush through her hair a few more times before unzipping her duffel and shoving the brush in next to her make-up bag and uniform. She scanned the area, trying to locate the quarterback, to see if he was waiting on her yet.
"Bri? Oh my God, you looked great out there!" Bri turned to the voice behind her as a smile spread quickly across her face. She'd know that wavy brown hair and high voice anywhere. She stepped to the other girl and embraced her tightly.
"Ash, what are you doing here? I thought you were going to Korvus now!" Ashley Kingsley giggled lightly and brushed some of her hair out of her face as she stood back from Bri. Still wearing too much make-up, Ash, Bri thought, but continued to smile at her old friend. And good God, that outfit. What were you thinking? I taught you better than that.
Ashley just smiled and tossed her chestnut hair a bit. "Stephen said that he and Diyar and you are having a bit of trouble at Saint Joe's so he invited us as a surprise for you!"
Bri's smile never faltered as she tilted her head to the side. "U-us?"
Ash just giggled again and did a little bounce, before nodding, sending her waves of hair back over her shoulders. "Yep! Me and JD! He's around here somewh- Oh! There he is! JD! I found her! Over here!" Ash jumped and craned her neck, waving an arm. Bri turned her head to see a seven-foot-tall, muscled teen approaching quickly, his star jock smile plastered on his face. His dirty blonde hair just barely touched the tops of his ears and his blue-grey eyes sparkled slightly when he smiled. He, like Ashley, still wore his Seacliff letterman's jacket. Once upon a time, Bri had thought him handsome, charming, and that smile would have melted her knees. But now... Now, it made every muscle in her tense up. Without her willing it to, Bri's hand started to shake slightly. To hide it she grabbed the strap of her duffel and shouldered it. It wouldn't do for John David Langston to know she was still terrified of him.
And she was. After six months of separation and thousands of dollars in therapy, every time she saw him, she was thrust back to that night two years ago, when she groggily woke up to the pain and fear. When she came to on that couch, JD's hand pinning both her wrists above her head, his other hand unbuttoning her shirt and working its way up her leg, under her skirt...
Bri blinked and swallowed audibly. "Hey, JD. How's Korvus treating you two?" Bri screamed at herself to run, to get away. But if she ran, he'd know. He'd know that he still had power over her, could still manipulate her. The fear she had fought so hard to forget snaked up her spine, making her shiver more than the December wind that whipped across the field. She willed herself to stop shaking as JD embraced her briefly and smiled at her as he draped an arm over Ash's shoulders.
"It's going good. I mean, we really miss you and Stephen and Jenn and Trevor. Not quite the same without the whole gang, you know?"
Bri nodded slightly, suddenly conscious of the fact the he could probably see right through her facade. His eyes caught hers and the sparkle was gone. In it's place was a cold, calculating stare. Bri looked away and smiled at Ash. "So did you make cheer squad at Korvus?" When the girl simply nodded, Bri continued. "Oh, that's great, Ash. Like there was really ever any doubt."
The group spoke for another few minutes, the tension mounting in Bri until she knew she couldn't hide it much longer. She looked over her shoulder, searching for an excuse to leave, to escape. She noted a few of her classmates out in the parking lot, probably discussing where to celebrate the victory. But they were too far away and she didn't know them well enough for them to call her over. She could claim to have left something in the locker room. Yes, that's it. Then she could call Stephen's cell and have him meet the three of them. She'd have her protector with her. She wouldn't have to be scared then. JD wouldn't try anything with Stephen there.
"Oh, shoot." Bri looked up as Ash spoke, pulling her cell from her too tight jeans. "I gotta take this. It's Daddy. I'll be right back." Bri wanted to beg Ash not to leave her alone, to stay nearby, but before she could speak Ash had rounded the corner and disappeared.
"Well, I, uh... I left something in the l-locker room. So I'll..." Bri took a step towards the door. She jumped as JD slammed his palm into the wall, his arm blocking her path. She paled slightly. "JD, I'll just be a minute."
JD's charming smile was gone now. His face was cold and frightening. "Hang on just a sec. Been a while, Babe." He brought his hand up and ran it along the side of her face and into her hair, grimacing as she flinched away. "You still remember don't you? The deal we made?" Bri nodded quickly, her eyes growing wide as JD grabbed her shoulder and pinned it against the wall. "Good. Tell me again."
Bri's voice was barely a whisper as she slowly spoke. "I don't t-tell anyone what happened." She took a deep breath as JD grabbed her right shoulder, his large hands enveloping her entire upper arms. "A... And you don't..." Bri trailed off. She could already feel the tears starting to well up in her eyes. She hated him. She hated what he had made her. She hated the "deal" they had made. She hated keeping quiet and playing the perfect best friend.
JD painfully squeezed her shoulders and pushed them back as far as he could into the wall. He leaned in next to her ear and whispered, "And I don't snap your pretty little neck, Princess."
The tears came freely now. She could feel JD smile next to her, pleased with the effect he still had on her. She shook in his grasp, making no struggle to escape. The terror of that night and the year that followed at Seacliff, the days of pretending that everything was okay, watching her friend date her attacker, all of it welled up in her.
And beneath it all, she could feel it. The groggy, fuzzy feeling she got on patrol. Normally, she'd be horrified for it to happen on campus. But for now, she embraced it. It was an escape, a refuge where she didn't have to be afraid. As JD grinned a twisted version of his charming smile and moved a hand to her neck, she let herself slip. She let the feeling wash over her and cover her completely. She could already feel her fist tightening, tensing under the strain, waiting to be unleashed. As her vision narrowed and blinked out she heard JD laugh. "And we wouldn't want that, would we, Babe?"